The Day I Was Reminded

This is a delayed post, written July 29, 2019.  I just didn't have internet connection, so I forgot to post until now.  So the title has a double meaning? -J :-)

I was reminded today that I don’t have to do all the things.  I don’t have to be what someone tells me. I can write what I feel and what I think, and someone out there will probably want to read it.  I just need to be true to me.

I’ve also, if truth be told, had a glass of wine and a good day, so consider the world warned.

I stopped writing mostly due to stress.  I had to quit my part-time job, which stressed me financially.  My husband has been under-employed for two years, we’ve had major house repairs to make, and it’s not until now, two years almost to the date since it all began, that I’m starting to feel like we might somehow survive and be safe.  It’s not normally hard to write in that mode for me, but add a toddler on top, and there you go.

Today is different.  Today is different because today is the day they fix one of the two major basement issues we’ve been having.  This was the more major, and the one we didn’t see coming.  Fixing it seems like a sign.

Fixing it also meant daycare day for my daughter, so I got to enjoy a winery for the day.  Thus the glass of wine.  That might even be part of the sign.  This is legit the most relaxed I’ve been in ages.  And the most I’ve felt free to write. 

When you have no money with a toddler and you’re not a good outdoorsy person, you spend a lot of time at the library.  Well, I do, because I’m a nerd.  So I’ve read a lot, and I plan to write a lot about books and reading.  But there will be other stuff too, I hope.  And I hope anyone who’s reading this right now will enjoy it.